ϟ I just realised it’s all my fault..
I re-read the latest messages with my now ex boyfriend and it’s my fault we got the last fight, so it’s my fault he broke up with me, because he was sick off all the fights and that was the last straw for him. I can’t even say sorry for that, because he wants peace and I respect that. I feel really bad about the fact that I hurt him like that. I’m not crying anymore, but I feel really bad that it’s my fault I lost my best friend. I miss him. I miss telling him all the good things that are happening. I miss hearing about his day, his voice and his face. I miss my best friend!
ϟ I’ve lost the love off my life yesterday!
My boyfriend broke up with me last night and I can’t deal with it. I’ve not stopped crying since, literally! I’ve cried when I was “sleeping” (slept for 2 hours), when I was working, I even cried on my way home. I can’t stop and I can’t handle this at all. I did not only lost the love off my life, I also lost my best friend, my future husband and father off my kids. I never wanted to marry and get kids, but he changed that. I don’t know if I ever find someone like that again and I don’t want to find someone. I want him, my best friend and the light off my life. He was kind, sweet, cute and had respect for me. I was I could fix all this and start over with him. I’m going to cry some more now.
ϟ Attention people from the netherlands:
I really need a job, like now!!! Does anybody know where I can apply? Please help me :(
I’m really desperate!
ϟ I’ve never been so bored in my life!
There’s nothing to do in this god awful house. I can’t play the games I want to play, because my ps3 and pc are not at my place. There’s nothing on tv or on my laptop. I’m stuck at the games I have at home. God. It’s 11.15 am and I’m already staring at the clock for over an hour. All I can do is looking for jobs I hate and they all decline me, if you’re looking for me; I’m searching for a box to live under a bridge or something. Jeesh I hate this.
ϟ Two more days and then the waiting is over! I will speak/see my man again :)
Nervous as hell, but I couldn’t be more happy about that.